An early Autumn evening, week of the Equinox—
bees working overtime, knowing time runs against them.
Sitting, sipping Irish whiskey, thinking: one day you're at an end,
but you understand: time is measured in beginnings and endings.
Across the way a pileated woodpecker laughs—listening to my thoughts?—
another echoes from the north ridge woods. The bees have gone home,
it's quiet, except for woodpeckers laughing: laughing because they recognize
a fool, laughing because it is beautiful here, laughing
in recognition of truth: they are here now, and now is the only time,
Wanted for half a life to be in this place, waited to be here, near the adopted
parents I loved, where they died, home. I sit this quiet evening,
on land they gave me, with my Irish and laughing woodpeckers for company,
thinking back to roots in an old New England town: a white house, a barn,
a Summer house behind, home of my grandparents. Was that a beginning, or an end?
Then I couldn't stay and I couldn't say, knowing, now, it was both:
treks for truth begin and end, over and again, with truth found, lost, found again,
always on the edge of being lost—false truths draw like flames. Far away
a woodpecker has one last laugh, knowing the truth of being here—now—
knowing only this evening can be truth, knowing time runs against us all.